stewing.....or simmering?
Stewing sounds like I'm thinking about something bad but in reality I have a good option so can I call that simmering? I heard back from my post-doc possibility and they offered to write me a formal offer letter with a flexible start date! So that is exciting but I'm just trying to think about it from all angles. Do I want to go there? (yes I think so) The worry is that I said I would try to be done near December, what if I blow that and take longer and irritate my new boss? What if something happens before then that messes up my data collection time? What if I move E and I out there and I fall flat on my face in a new lab? yikes. It just seems so scary to get a real job. I'm worried I'll disappoint my new boss, making my old boss disappointed at the same time. Am I missing out on other opportunities if I take this one now?
I am very happy to have the offer, to have somewhere to go to, to have a salary and a plan. This way when E finishes his MBA in June he can start to look for jobs early in the new city. I also feel a lot of pressure to finish as fast as possible even though some of the data collection is going slowly and I can't control all the variables that make it crawl along. I can focus on writing up what I can, I can analyze as I go, I can plan out my time and use it efficiently but the technique I use does not guarantee results everytime I use it. That I can't change, I can only keep going. But I have to share sessions w/ my lab partner so I only get 1/2 as many as I need. I can't change that either, he needs to finish too. I'm thrilled I got this chance, but I also feel like someone just gave a giant brick to me while I was already treading water.
I am very happy to have the offer, to have somewhere to go to, to have a salary and a plan. This way when E finishes his MBA in June he can start to look for jobs early in the new city. I also feel a lot of pressure to finish as fast as possible even though some of the data collection is going slowly and I can't control all the variables that make it crawl along. I can focus on writing up what I can, I can analyze as I go, I can plan out my time and use it efficiently but the technique I use does not guarantee results everytime I use it. That I can't change, I can only keep going. But I have to share sessions w/ my lab partner so I only get 1/2 as many as I need. I can't change that either, he needs to finish too. I'm thrilled I got this chance, but I also feel like someone just gave a giant brick to me while I was already treading water.
5 Comments:
At 11:32 PM,
Anonymous said…
Congratulations!
I think your new boss will understand if your PhD work takes a bit longer. That always happens, and otherwise why would they have given you a flexible start date? If you're good and they want you, they will wait.
At 7:47 AM,
PG said…
Good news! Congratuations. If it's an academic post doc, I would imagine that they would understand that research can take longer than expected.
Your fears are reasonable. But, I'm sure you'll be an asset to them. The way I see it, a post doc is a pretty low risk. They're getting someone who is already highly trained and who can work independently.
Do you have to commit almost a year in advance or can you wait and see how things develop over the year?
At 5:45 PM,
Psych Post Doc said…
If they're willing to write you an offer letter with an open start date then I would say they get all of this.
Also, if they're willing to wring you an offer letter almost a year in advance, they know you won't fail. :) You'll be great.
If you want to go there, I say grab at the chance to do this.
At 7:49 AM,
B said…
Thanks! I'm excited to know I have a place to go where I will be interested in the new research questions and I get to learn a new technique! yay!
At 10:08 AM,
Anonymous said…
Congratulations!!! =)
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