still here

I'm still here I've just been reading blogs instead of writing. I guess I feel like I don't have a lot to write about. I have the same frustrations with lab and being in school so long etc. I want to finish this degree but sometimes I get so scared that I won't make it. Today I woke up thinking that I've put in countless hours to this one data set but I'm still not sure it will get published. There is some new data in there but what if the field feels it is irrelevant based on old lesion studies? Will anybody take it or did I waste the last 2 years working on this? And it isn't even my dissertation! crap crap crap. Speaking of the dissertation project 1 part 1 went ok, part 2 is not going ok, part 3 I still need to tweak and figure out how to run. Project 2 seems like an impossibility, but is what my advisor's has been trying to make happen for years, and we finally got the new equipment this month to try it correctly. So I should be hopeful but I'm so worried that it will take months to get it working and then where will I be? In year 6 with less data needing more, less time needing to get out of here! I just feel stuck. But I know I have so much left to do, I don't know if I am ever going to finish.

E is sleeping, he stayed out past 3 am playing Risk with the guys. I came home around 11 pm from an outing with my girlfriends. We went to see 27 dresses which was cute and fun but predictable, but that was all we wanted, something happy to watch. We also went to dinner and then just hung out talking. I should remember all that my friend Z has to put up and then I will feel better.