transition

I'm in the middle. I don't officially move until the 28th. I'm trying to pack, clean up my lab area (I have so many papers, binders it is crazy), plan for my new lab, and write up a paper. My boss is pushing me to submit it before I leave. We have to load all of our stuff July 22, clean the place. I'm running out of time.

I keep thinking why did I push myself for 7 years for this? I finished this degree to go work for someone else, to make little money, to work long hours for what? I gave myself a health problem in the process. So that maybe, MAYBE 3 years from now I can find a job and move again? I'm dragging my husband half way across the country, away from my family. He won't have a job... 1 in 6 Americans are unemployed and he is leaving his job for me....


I'm just tired, worried, stressed and SICK of my data. I feel like I can't focus or think. I should be thankful I have a job, and I am, but I'm terrified I won't know what I'm supposed to when I get there. New techniques, new animals, new literature. ack. I finally figured out what I was doing here and now I'll be starting all over again. I feel scattered. Did anyone else feel like this when they moved on?